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Laughter Is The Best Medicine

4/7/2020

You've probably heard the old adage that laughter is the best medicine, but did you know that there's scientific proof that supports laughter actually creating physical, mental and emotional well-being? We intuitively know that laughter is one of the best tools we have for dealing with stress, and science backs that up.

During challenging times like what we are now experiencing, laughing can be the farthest thing from our minds. We tend to get more serious, stressed out, and lack the ability or even the desire, to laugh when it's exactly what we need. Laughing can serve as a shifter or a reset button. Laughter is how we can see and hear happiness.

Intentionally creating scenarios to laugh each day is an important coping tool for challenging times. How this looks can vary, it might be watching a funny movie, a standup comedic act, or reading a humorous book. It might be getting on a video chat with friends and laughing together like you normally would in person. It might be through telling funny stories of the past with your loved ones or pulling friendly shenanigans or pranks on your loved ones. There are lots of ways to cultivate laughter.

Go ahead and give it a try. Turn the corners of your mouth up into a smile and then give a laugh, even if it feels a little forced. Another option is to practice a laughing meditation, yep you read that right. Gather up your family or friends in person or on a video chat and have everyone just start laughing. It usually starts off forced and awkward, but it quickly becomes funny and pretty soon everyone is genuinely laughing.

Once you've had a good laugh, take stock of how you're feeling. Are your muscles a little less tense? Do you feel more relaxed and light? Finding humor amongst the challenge builds resilience. And the best thing of all...laughter is contagious. Treat laughter as you would your diet, exercise and other daily practices, and get some laughter into your daily routine. Just a few minutes a day can decrease stress, increase your mood, overall health and wellness.

Why did the teddy bear say no to dessert?
Because she was stuffed :)

The Practice Of Hope

3/31/2020

Do you actively practice hope? I believe that hope is a spiritual practice. Hope is not just a feeling, it's a verb, it's something that we practice. It's not just wishing that something might happen, but rather, being confident that something is going to happen and actively taking part in creating it. Hope opens the door to new possibilities and imagines a world beyond what exists.

Hope is an intentional act...choosing what we aim to create. Using our intuition, focusing our intention, exercising our faith and letting them be our guide.

Hope motivates and inspires us to act with compassion, kindness, gentleness, and generosity. It opens our eyes to the beauty that surrounds us. Hope is having faith and relying on God’s grace instead of our own will, strength or abilities.

The practice of hope can look different for each of us. I practice hope through daily intention, by being still, checking in and connecting with my spiritual self and with Spirit. This practice reminds me that I am more than this human body experiencing this moment in time. I am a spiritual being having a human experience. From this space, I can tap into spiritual wisdom.

Writer and life coach, Hilary Illick, shares another step in the practice of hope, "Having connected to your spiritual self, you can move into the practice of self-compassion. An especially effective method for cultivating self-compassion involves repeating the self-compassion prayer: I am suffering right now; all human beings suffer and deserve kindness; may I be kind to myself. Combining this with placing your hand on your heart, or rubbing your cheek or lips (all of which spur the production of oxytocin, the bonding hormone) can switch your state from fight-or-flight (the sympathetic nervous system) into relax-and-respond (the parasympathetic). Once in your parasympathetic nervous system, you are no longer churning out the stress hormones of adrenaline and cortisol, but are instead creating endorphins and oxytocin, the feel-good hormones."

We can then practice hope by offering compassion out to others who are suffering. This can be as simple as noticing when another person is in pain and holding space...listening without offering advice or trying to fix it or them.

Compassionate gestures for ourself or for others, no matter how small, casts out ripples of goodness into the universe. We have no idea how far-reaching the impact of these ripples. Making choices from a place of hope and not fear casts out ripples of goodness, and opens the door to new possibilities beyond what currently exists.

Opening To The Spiritual Wisdom

3/21/2020

The past few days I've been feeling all the feels. It's hard sometimes to know exactly how/what I'm feeling and it's been hard to feel centered and connected. Anyone else struggling and feeling wonky?

I keep reminding myself that it's okay to not feel like my "normal" self, that I don't need to beat myself up about it or try to force myself to feel "normal". Yes, I can practice my tools and techniques...reflect more, practice gratitude, meditate, exercise, get out in nature, keep perspective, connect with others, etc., but ultimately it's okay to just be present with whatever I am feeling at this moment.

Not getting swallowed up by it and ruminate stories about it in my head, but also not try and sweep it under the rug. Remember that having feelings doesn't make you a negative person, it makes you human. Just be with it and accept it for what it is, not attaching too much to it, but be willing to be light with it.

Did you know that "Corona" means crown, a halo, like garland or wreath worn on the top of the head? Corona is also a reference to the aura of light surrounding the sun and other stars. Spiritually a crown represents our Divine nature, our connection to the Divine, it's symbolic of Divine good and truth. For me there's a spiritual suggestion here that we open up to the spiritual wisdom of the moment.

Our crown chakra is the portal through which life energy enters our body. Without this energy, we tend to feel disconnected with self and others. The offering of the crown is the experience of unity that everything is connected, oneness with everyone and everything in nature.

The reminder here is that we are all always connected to the Divine and to each other in a big interconnected web of love and light. It helps me to envision the connection as light coming down and connecting with the top of my head filling me with light and love. This morning as I was doing this envisioning exercise, I was reminded by Spirit that "it's all about love"...open up your crown to the Spiritual wisdom, open up to love. Bring that beautiful loving light down through your crown, then drop it down into your heart space and blast it out into the world.

Now is a time to open up to the Spiritual wisdom of this experience and feel your connection to the Divine and to all that is. Reflect and discover the Spiritual wisdom within your own personal experience, maintain your spiritual practices and be okay with feeling all of the feels. Go easy on yourself, know that you are deeply loved, supported and connected always. Sending you huge blasts of love and light. Be well.

Sending Out Lots Of Love

3/17/2020

A lot of people are currently experiencing feelings of uncertainty, vulnerability and fear due to the implications of Covid-19. The list of unanswered questions grows. "Are we doing the right thing? How can I protect myself and my loved ones? What does this mean for my income source? What does this mean for my business and my employees? My retirement fund? How will this effect others our community? How long will this last?" This uncertainty feeds our stress and ultimately our feelings of fear.

Our brains are designed for survival and are hard-wired for a negativity bias. This causes us to hyper-focus on the threats, and see more and more negative. Our brains naturally focus on the worse case scenario. Unfortunately, as we experience this on-going stress, we compromise our bodies ability to be at an optimal state of health, which is the opposite of what we need right now.

Spiritual nourishment and practices are even more important at this moment in time. Taking time to be mindful, to pause, reflect, exercise wisdom, courage and compassion to ourselves and to others. There are a lot of simple practices that can help to reduce the stress and anxiety, boost our immune system and cultivate resilience in the face of our current situation.

Two quick and easy practices that serve to not only reduce stress, but also to send out waves of healing energy, love and kindness into the world are a loving kindness (Metta) meditation and a heart connection meditation (heart-brain coherence). I've included easy to follow instructions on performing these quick meditations below this post. Doing them in succession with each other is powerful.

We are all being asked to be generous and compassionate at this time. To modify our behavior for the greater good, especially for those in our society who are most vulnerable to this disease. Remembering our common humanity and showing ourselves and others the gift of compassion. We are all being reminded of our interdependence and interconnectedness. Go easy on yourself and on others.

Something we can all do from our homes is to give ourselves some love, kindness and compassion and to send it out by practicing a loving kindness meditation. I invite us all to collectively send out lots of love, kindness and compassion into the world. A crisis like this can bring out the best and the worst in people. I believe it's important to stop and ask ourself...what is it bringing out in me? During this time of uncertainty and "social distancing" I'll be sending out lots of love and healing energy to you and to the world. Be well.

Heart Connection Technique (heart-brain coherence)
Step 1: Focus Your Heart
Action: Allow your awareness to move from your mind to the area of your heart.
Result: This sends a signal to your heart that a shift has taken place—you are no longer engaged in the world around you and are now becoming aware of the world within you.

Step 2: Slow Your Breathing
Action: Begin to breathe a little more slowly than usual, allowing five to six seconds for your inhale and exhale.
Result: This simple step sends a second signal to your body that you are safe and in a place that supports your process. Deep, slow breathing has long been known to stimulate a relaxation response of the nervous system.

Step 3: Feel a Rejuvenating Feeling
Action: To the best of your ability, feel a genuine sense of caring, appreciation, gratitude, or compassion for anything or anyone.
Result: The key to success here is for your feeling to be as sincere and heartfelt as possible. It’s the quality of this feeling that fine-tunes and optimizes the coherence between your heart and your brain.

Loving Kindness (metta) Meditation
This meditation is the simple repetition of the following phrases:
May you be healthy and strong. May you be happy. May you be filled with ease.
-Directing them first toward someone you feel thankful for, someone who has helped you or someone who you feel unconditional love for.
-Next direct them toward yourself.
-Now direct them toward someone you struggle with, someone you are having a hard time with.
-Finally, direct them toward everyone in the Universe.

We've Each Been Uniquely And Perfectly Created

3/10/2020

Have you ever asked yourself questions like..."Why does that person meet people with so much ease? Why can't I be more like that?" or "Why is that person so good at leadership? Why can I be more like that?"

As Theodore Roosevelt stated, "Comparison is the thief of joy." Comparing yourself with someone else is an inaccurate and irrelevant measuring stick and not only that, it steals away your own amazing superpower when you attempt to wear a mask and be someone you are not. It’s impossible to be the best version of yourself, if you jump into the comparison game.

We are all born unique, different from everybody else in our own splendidly authentic variation. The only masterful creation you have to work with is yourself and it's more productive to focus on being the best version of yourself that you can be. I remind myself regularly that the only person I should compare myself to and work to be better than is the person I was yesterday.

How well do you know yourself and your strengths, your own superpowers at a foundational level? Do you know what your needs are, what environments best suit you, how to keep from feeling drained, how to best re-energize yourself when you do feel drained? Do you know your own leadership traits? How well do the people who closely interact with you know you and your needs?

I'm referring to you in your most natural state, your inborn temperament without the masks that we wear to meet our perception of the expectations of the world. We are all born with our very own temperament, it’s rooted in the core of who we are. Newborn babies exhibit from birth different temperaments and tendencies they are not born a blank slate.

Layered on top of our temperament is the impact of humans and the environment on us. This is called our character. At birth, we begin interacting with our environment and our environment interacts with us. The environment is everything we see, hear, smell, feel and learn. These perceptions are forever locked into our brain, and they slightly mold and alter our temperament, thereby forming character.

Our personality is what the majority of the world sees. Our personality is expressed in the way we perceive how we must behave to survive in the world in which we live. This may or may not be part of our temperament or character. It's what most of the world who don't know us well experience of us.

In order to thrive and become the best version of ourself that we can be it's critical that we have self-awareness, that we are intimately familiar with who we are, what makes us tick and what our needs are. Making healthy connections with others starts with an understanding of our connection with self.

A new service that I'm offering is a temperament analysis profile assessment. The results of the analysis builds self-awareness, allowing us to understand our needs and how to make stronger intentional connections with others. It identifies our unique superpowers, how to optimize them, and strategies for shoring up our challenging areas to become the best version of ourself. If you are interested in learning more let me know or check out the website at www.intentionalconnectionsllc.com.

How To Attract More Of The Good Stuff

3/3/2020

How do we get more of the good stuff? More love in our life, more appreciation, more joy? A key way to get more is to give more. It's the Law of Reciprocity...the more you give, the more your receive. It's a cycle of give and receive.

As Deepak Chopra writes, “The more you give, the more you will receive, because you will keep the abundance of the universe circulating in your life. In fact, anything that is of value in life only multiplies when it is given. So if you want joy, give joy to others. If love is what you seek, offer love.” As Deepak suggests, "You can give a small gift to everyone you encounter, whether a smile, a heartfelt compliment, a flower, or a silent blessing. When you do something to make someone happy, you immediately feel more happiness yourself."

Darren Hardy explains it this way, "I do something that sounds a bit odd, but I send love to someone. The way to get love is to give it, and one thing I want more of is love. I give love by thinking of one person, anyone (it could be a friend, relative, co-worker, or someone I just met in the supermarket—it doesn’t matter), and then I send them love by imagining all that I wish and hope for them. Some would call this a blessing or a prayer; I call it a mental love letter. This process turns my love magnets on every morning. It’s amazing how the world changes around me when I have these magnets on."

I love that, a mental love letter...not only does it make us feel good and change our vibration and our energy, but I believe that it energetically goes out into the world and impacts the world around us, and ultimately to the person that we direct the mental love letter to.

I also love the idea of turning on my love magnets each morning, what a super cool way to start the day! When you change, the world around you also changes and your "love magnets" attract more of that love vibration to you.

The good stuff, like love, expands in our life through the power of momentum, taking small steps that build our energy and our momentum. Once we set it in motion, momentum can be an amazing and abundant force, a magnet for more and more and more.

A big thing to keep in mind (and this can be a tough one) is that the universe doesn't always give back love (or other good stuff) from where you gave it. Your gift of love to one person may be returned by a complete stranger. The key is to keep putting it out wherever you see that it's needed and you'll keep getting it back in return.

Love is the most powerful force in the universe. I believe that one of the biggest reasons we are here on earth is to love and to be loved. Love has the power to heal. Love is the path to living a life of happiness and of well-being. Love shows up in what we do for others, what we give to others. Love forgives faults and imperfections and allows for differences of opinions. Love is compassion for others. Love is gratitude for others. Love is empathy for others. Love doesn't judge. Love listens and love inspires. Love is who and what we really are.

If you want more good stuff, give more of the good stuff. As Darren Hardy says, "Don't want what you want. That will only create more want. Instead give what you want, that will ignite the process of creating it. Wanting wanting wanting creates more wanting." If you want more love, be brave and give more love, become a love magnet!

Loving The Hot Mess

2/25/2020

Love is a key spiritual element. Usually when we think about love we think about love in regard to giving it to someone else, or receiving it from someone else, but how many of us stop to think about and give consideration to self-love? In last week's post I shared some thoughts on self-love and an exercise designed to cultivate and support loving of oneself.

Because self-love is a topic that frequently comes up when I'm talking with people, I felt compelled to explore it further and to share some additional thoughts on loving ourselves.

In Matthew 22:36-40 the bible says, "Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?" Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments". Hmmm...love your neighbor as yourself...what if we don't hold much love for ourselves then? How well will we be able to love our neighbor?

In her book All About Love, bell hooks states, "We are not born knowing how to love anyone, either ourselves or somebody else. However, we are born able to respond to care. As we grow we can give and receive attention, affection, and joy. Whether we learn how to love ourselves and others will depend on the presence of a loving environment." Are you learning in the presence of a loving environment how to love yourself, so you can in turn love others?

I've often heard that relationships are like mirrors reflecting our strengths and weaknesses, showing who we are at that moment. Deepak Chopra says, "The world is a reflection of us. If you don't like the reflection, it doesn't help to break the mirror". And Joe Vitale puts it this way, "What you see in the world around you is a reflection of your inner self. Once you change the inner you change the outer along with it." What do you see when you look in the mirror?

A lot of us are in the habit of beating ourselves up and exercising self-loathing. I'll never be able to do that, or I'll never be able to do it as good as so and so, or I'm not as smart, or as pretty, or as thoughtful, or as well-read, or as traveled as I should be, or as much as the next person, I'm dumb, I sound stupid, I look fat. It seems we are often looking for a way out by seeking...a better degree, job, relationship, diet, or house. Some people seek a way out by self-medicating through drinking or overeating, by becoming control freaks and perfectionists, through an addiction to spending, by attacking others, and some of us just hide it better than others.

Marianne Williamson states in her book, A Return to Love, "The perfect you isn't something you need to create, because God already created it. The perfect you is the love within you. Your job is to allow the Holy Spirit to remove the fearful thinking that surrounds your perfect self." She goes on to say, "To remember that you are part of God, that you are loved and lovable, is not arrogant. It's humble." Fear is the opposite of love. Fear and ego keep us from self-love. Just recognizing this goes a long way toward shifting and changing. Just shifting how we think about life produces a shift in how we experience it.

Cultivating self-love is a journey of spiritual growth and self-discovery in the practice of living consciously and intentionally. There are many layers to building self-love and many tools and techniques. I'll highlight some techniques that I've found useful in my own practice.

One technique that works toward building self-love is called mirror work. It's recommended that this routine be practiced every day for at least 30 days (it would be great to have it be an on-going daily practice). Look into the mirror, into your own eyes and repeat to yourself, "I love you, I really love you, I love myself as God loves me". It seems simple and maybe silly, but after doing this for a period of time you should start to feel an inner shift occur. During your first few attempts, you'll probably notice the bags under your eyes, or your crows feet, or hear the self-loathing talk and that's okay, go easy on yourself. Be intentional and keep working at it, keep working toward seeing the good in you and the beauty versus judging yourself. Many of us have a hard time loving all parts of ourselves, this exercise changes how we think, feel and what we believe about ourselves.

Another simple and yet powerful tool to help build self-love, as well as love for others is called Metta meditation or loving kindness meditation. The loving kindness meditation is a simple repetition of the following phrases...May I be healthy and strong. May I be happy. May I be filled with ease...first directing them toward yourself, then toward someone you are thankful for, then toward someone you feel neutral about, then toward someone who is frustrating you, and then to the Universe as a whole. Repeating each as many times as you would like. Here is a link for more detailed information on this loving kindness meditation technique
http://greatergood.berkeley.edu/raising_happiness/post/better_than_sex_and_appropriate_for_kids

Another way to exercise self-love is to start taking care of yourself and making yourself a priority. Nothing sends a stronger signal to your unconscious self than when your conscious self places priority on doing things that nurture you. Taking a walk or a hot bath, going to an exercise class, eating well, getting enough sleep, reading a book, spending time with friends are all ways to nurture yourself. We often times back-burner our own needs/nurturing and get caught up in the tasks of life, even to the point of feeling guilty if we do spend time doing something for ourselves. Refueling and reenergizing our own spirit is an important expression of self-love and will go a long way toward causing us to be more productive in all areas of our lives. Take time to nurture yourself and don't throw yourself on a guilt trip.

Some spiritual leaders would say that love is our purpose here on earth, that to experience love in ourselves and others is the meaning of life. That is a powerful statement, but love so greatly impacts all of the other elements of spirituality that I have to agree that it is clearly a very important piece...love your neighbor as yourself.

The Definition Of Love

2/5/2020

M. Scott Peck's classic self-help book, The Road Less Traveled, defines love as "the will to extend one's self for the purpose of nurturing one's own or another's spiritual growth." Whoa, I love this definition of love, it really resonates with me.

When we understand or define love in this way, it becomes clear that we cannot claim to love if we are hurtful or abusive...whether to another or to ourself. Love and abuse cannot coexist together.

Most of us, instead of nurturing our relationship with ourself, spend a lot of our time up in our head doing the opposite... creating and spinning negative self-talk. Can we truly love others if we don't love ourselves? Do you love yourself?

A lot of us don't love ourself and don't know how to love ourself. We may occasionally "treat" ourself to massages, baths, special food, etc. under the guise of "self-love", when in reality we are trying to fill a void inside our hearts. Not that these acts of self-love don't have their place, but they typically don't fill the void and don't cause us to actually learn to love ourselves.

Confronting our own lovelessness is part of the healing process. bell hooks, author of All About Love, states, "When we see love as a combination of trust, commitment, care, respect, knowledge, and responsibility, we can work on developing these qualities or, if they are already a part of who we are, we can learn to extend them to ourselves." She goes on to say, "Self-love is the foundation of our loving practice. Without it our other efforts to love fail. Giving ourselves love we provide our inner being with the opportunity to have the unconditional love we may have always longed to receive from someone else. Whenever we interact with others, the love we give and receive is always necessarily conditional. Although it is not impossible, it is very difficult and rare for us to be able to extend unconditional love to others, largely because we cannot exercise control over the behavior of someone else and we cannot predict or utterly control our responses to their actions. We can, however, exercise control over our own actions. We can give ourselves the unconditional love that is the grounding for sustained acceptance and affirmation. When we give this precious gift to ourselves, we are able to reach out to others from a place of fulfillment and not from a place of lack."

Elizabeth Gilbert engages in a daily practice that works at a deep spiritual level to nurture self and develop self-love. Every day she writes to love. She starts out by saying, "I need you" as the first sentence, and in the second sentence responds with, "I am right here." It's a way to engage with your own self...your higher self, and/or with God. She proceeds to add what she needs/wants to hear. Writing down anything and everything you want to hear, everything that you wish you could hear somebody else tell you. Being kind, loving, generous and expressing gratitude toward yourself. Highlighting your accomplishments., writing down what you love and appreciate about yourself.

Elizabeth Gilbert further describes her daily love writing practice:

"There were nights when I sat up for hours, writing words like this to myself again and again, through a scrim of tears and waves of panic. And often another (angrier) part of me would scrawl at the bottom of the page: "This is bullshit. I don't believe in you." Then I would patiently begin writing again at the top of the next page, "But I believe in YOU. And I will not leave your side. I will love you and take care of you forever…" On it would go, until I could finally fall asleep. Then again the next night…and so on.

My promise to myself is this: I will walk beside myself for as long as I live, holding my own hand, taking care of the soul with which I have been entrusted.
I will do that always, whether anybody else is in the room with me or not.

You must learn how to tell yourself that you are loved. You must tell yourself this again and again until slowly you learn to believe it. Start writing yourself love letters. It feels weird at first, but keep going. Practice. Practice more. Practice EVEN more. You'll need it someday — or you may need it right now.
Life can be hard, but without your own certain love for your own tenderest self, it is simply impossible."

Deanna Heiliger author of the blog, Me to the power of We: Because Together is Better, shares this, "Writing a love letter to yourself will help you with self-criticism and negative self-talk. We all talk to ourselves in a not-so-loving way from time to time, but it is not really a very healthy thing to do. By focusing on the attributes you love about yourself, those positive things will become more prominent, they will gravitate to the forefront of your mind. And when you love yourself, you naturally love others with less effort and with less judgment. Yes, you can also say positive affirmations about yourself, which is a very powerful exercise and habit to get into…but there is something extremely powerful in the whole writing process. Writing involves your brain, your hands, your eyes and your focus. As you write, emotions tend to surface. The more senses and emotions you can involve in your writing, the truer it becomes to you."

For Valentine's Day give yourself the gift of love. Grow your own self-love, so you can go out into the world and extend that love to others, allowing for your own and other's spiritual growth.

Doubling Down On Love

2/4/2020

Since Valentine's Day is right around the corner, I wanted to share you with you a few posts on the topic of love. Several months ago, I read a post by one of my favorite authors, Brene Brown, on love that I resonated with me. I'm sharing the entire post below (warning it's longer than usual, but worth the read).

For those of you who are local and interested, I'll be facilitating a book discussion on bell hook's book, All About Love, on February 12th. Details can be found at "Tracy's Upcoming Events" tab.

Doubling Down on Love
By Brene Brown

I’ve been offline and in struggle since the shootings in El Paso and Dayton. At first I thought it was a combination of physical and spiritual exhaustion, or maybe low grade cultural despair with a side of burnout. I tried to combat the strange sense of emptiness with more work and more grind. This solution came to a grinding halt when I fell off my favorite pair of platform shoes. I was walking out of Charlie’s school when I hit an uneven patch of concrete. I turned my ankle, and the top strap of my shoe wrenched my foot and broke three of my toes. For the record, I put the breaking of toes at a 9 out of 10 on the pain scale. Holy shit. Nothing puts a stop to running hard as a distraction like an inflatable boot and crutches.

I can be ornery when I’m hurt or sick, so the combination of not being able to work out or spend too much time on my feet exacerbated the emptiness. After three weeks of feeling untethered and increasingly hollowed out, I realized something more serious was happening than the usual exhaustion or burnout. I couldn’t access hope or possibility. I poisoned every good thing with thoughts of potentially horrible things. I didn’t want to let my family out of my sight, but I didn’t feel like I had much of myself to offer them even when they were within arm’s reach.

One night, I sat straight up in my bed at 4am, strapped on my boot, pumped it up, and hopped on one foot to the top of the stairs. Too hurried to navigate down on my crutches, I sat and scooted down the stairs on my butt – like my brother and sisters and I did when we were little. Using one hand to brace myself against the wall, I hopped into my study and grabbed bell hooks’s book, All About Love.

Could the problem be lovelessness? Was the lovelessness in the world seeping into my life?

I went straight for the passages that I had highlighted and tagged over the years. By the time the sun came up, I understood what was happening. Yes, the world is suffering from traumatic levels of lovelessness right now, but what really brought me to my knees these past few months was how susceptible I was to perpetuating lovelessness in my own response to our collective pain. As I started to untangle everything I was feeling, I realized that over the past few months, I had unknowingly turned away from love – the only fuel source that really works for me. Instead of being fueled by love, I unconsciously had turned to fear, contempt, self-righteousness, and maybe a touch of high-octane disdain to navigate hard news and hard people.

I’ve learned the most about love and lovelessness from bell hooks. I’ve been reading her work for the past twenty-five years. Her books Teaching to Transgress and All About Love expanded my teaching and activism so much that I often say that her work is responsible for 90% of the stretch marks on my heart and my mind.

In All About Love, hooks writes,
“Taught to believe that the mind, not the heart, is the seat of learning, many of us believe that to speak of love with any emotional intensity means we will be perceived as weak and irrational. And it is especially hard to speak of love when what we have to say calls attention to the fact that lovelessness is more common than love, that many of us are not sure what we mean when we talk of love or how to express love.

Everyone wants to know more about love. We want to know what it means to love, what we can do in our everyday lives to love and be loved. We want to know how to seduce those among us who remain wedded to lovelessness and open the door to their hearts to let love enter. The strength of our desire does not change the power of our cultural uncertainty.

Everywhere we learn that love is important, and yet we are bombarded by its failure. In the realm of the political, among the religious, in our families, and in our romantic lives, we see little indication that love informs decisions, strengthens our understanding of community, or keeps us together. This bleak picture in no way alters the nature of our longing. We still hope that love will prevail. We still believe in love’s promise.”

I don’t claim to know what fuel works best for everyone, but what I know for sure is that I believe in love’s promise and I run best on love. For me, love is sustainable, renewable, and it burns clean. That doesn’t mean I don’t get angry. Anger is a soul-sucking lifetime companion, but it’s also a great catalyst for two of the grittiest, truest forms of love – justice and equity.

Cultures of Domination
hooks explains that we can only awaken to love if we let go of our obsession with power and domination. While All About Love was written in 2000, her observations about domination, white supremacy, the patriarchy, and power offer important insight into what we’re experiencing right now.

She explains that people who are willing to speak out against injustice are not smarter or kinder than their neighbors, but are “willing to live the truth of their values.” hooks shares this example:

“If you go door to door in our nation and talk to citizens about domestic violence, almost everyone will insist that they do not support male violence against women, that they believe it to be morally and ethically wrong. However, if you then explain that we can only end male violence against women by challenging patriarchy, and that means no longer accepting the notion that men should have more rights and privileges than women because of biological difference or that men should have the power to rule over women, that is when the agreement stops. There is a gap between the values they claim to hold and their willingness to do the work of connecting thought and action, theory and practice to realize these values and thus create a more just society.”

When we have a president who repeatedly uses language and rhetoric to dehumanize immigrants (including some of the exact language used by the shooter in El Paso), and a gun lobby that uses racism, nationalism, and fear to recruit and maintain members rather than advocating for safe and responsible gun ownership, what do we expect is going to happen? Lovelessness in words becomes lovelessness in deeds. This is a culture of domination at work.

The shooter in Ohio had a “rape list.” We know from a growing number of studies that there is a strong connection between mass-shooting incidents and violence against women. Again, lovelessness and domination.

For me, the short, well-lit, well-worn, path from theory to action – from words to deeds – seemed so clear that all I could feel was hate and rage toward not just the perpetrators of the shootings and the inciters and normalizers of violence, but I was indignant toward everyone around me who didn’t see the connections and weren’t sufficiently outraged.

Without love as the driver, my rage and contempt didn’t fuel action or serve as a catalyst. They killed my hope and resolve. Some days, my lovelessness just pulled the covers over my head, and other days it dressed me up in a “Death to Extremists” t-shirt and sent me into the world.

Erich Fromm writes, “There is perhaps no phenomenon which contains so much destructive feeling as ‘moral indignation,’ which permits envy or hate to be acted out under the guise of virtue.” Ouch.

A Love Ethic
“Individuals who choose to love can and do alter our lives in ways that honor the primacy of a love ethic. We do this by choosing to work with individuals we admire and respect; by committing to give our all to relationships; by embracing a global vision wherein we see our lives and our fate as intimately connected to those of everyone else on the planet. Commitment to a love ethic transforms our lives by offering us a different set of values to live by. In large and small ways, we make choices based on a belief that honesty, openness, and personal integrity need to be expressed in public and private decisions.”
bell hooks

I’ve lived by a love ethic my entire life, and I want to double down on love again. Right now. I want to nurture and protect love and kindness in myself and in others. The doubling down is going to require some changes in my life. I’m going to start with these:

I’m not afraid to have hard conversations or face pain, but I can be skittish when it comes to inviting joy and grace into my life. Joy fuels love. Grace allows me to reflect. I need to find a way to open that door more often. Even when it feels so vulnerable.
Even though there are a million things that need to change, we all need to rest sometimes – even when there’s still a shit-ton of work to do. Burn-out drives lovelessness.
For me, self-love is making and taking the time to create. I can’t live a love ethic if I’m not researching and writing and thinking. Creativity is who I am and how I’m wired.
When the world feels tough and disconnected, I need to sink into the softness and connection of my family and friends. Family is my love ethic. Sometimes, my go-to is to try to get tougher and even more disconnected than the world so I can fight back. It doesn’t work and it actually feeds that domination paradigm.
I need to make sure my anger is a catalyst born of love, not justification for causing pain when I’m in pain.
I want to co-create a love ethic in our organization and in our facilitator communities – an ethic that informs how we show up with each other, serve the work, and cultivate belonging. Lovelessness corrodes organizational culture. We need love wherever there are humans – that means at work too.
I need deeper, more meaningful spiritual connection. I need to rekindle things with God in some way that makes sense for me. Maybe I’ll take a run at meditation again, or renew my Daily Examen habit.
PS I don’t think you’re supposed to “take a run at meditating” but you know what I mean.
I’m going to live into my values and stand up for what I believe in from a place of love. And I’m not talking about rainbow and unicorn love. I’m talking about learning how to stay fueled by a gritty, dangerous, wild-eyed, radical, change-the-world kinda love when disdain, judgment, and contempt are so much easier and when fear is seducing me into staying quiet. hooks writes,
“Refusal to stand up for what you believe in weakens individual morality and ethics as well as those of the culture. No wonder then that we are a nation of people, the majority of whom, across race, class, and gender, claim to be religious, claim to believe in the divine power of love, and yet collectively remain unable to embrace a love ethic and allow it to guide behavior, especially if doing so would mean supporting radical change. Fear of radical changes leads many citizens of our nation to betray their minds and hearts.”

I’ll take radical change over betraying my mind and heart every time.
Doubling down on love demands that we be brave enough to straddle the tension of staying awake to the struggle in the world and fighting for justice and peace, while also cultivating a love ethic in our own lives. We can’t sacrifice the micro for the macro, or the macro for the micro.
Love, belonging, connection and joy are irreducible needs for all of us. We can’t give people what we don’t have. We have to live love to give love.

Precious Energy

1/28/2020

Are you restless? Antsy? Feel like there is a void in your life? The feeling that you want to do more, that you need to do more?
Whether it's because of citizens living in poverty, homelessness, the political environment, racial disparities, sexism, human trafficking, climate change, crime, terrorism...whatever your reasons, our reasons, many of us our feeling restless.

Part of why I am feeling restless is due to the continuous barrage of negative news. It's exhausting, overwhelming and hard to witness the news reports, endless social media posts, and related verbal commentary. There is a fine line between fueling the fire with anger, having your voice be heard and creating an onslaught of repeated negativity.

As positive psychology researcher and author Michelle Gielan says, "We can focus on the problem, but it is equally important to move the brain onto discussion of what we can do about it. Getting the brain to see that there is another path forward and that your behavior matters in the face of challenges is the key to unlocking better health and happiness. The more you seek out inspiration and solutions, the more you fuel your success and that of the people around you."

I think we need more action and less reaction. As author Dottie Fuller recently wrote, "It is time to educate ourselves. It is time to get re-involved. It is time to make our voices heard proactively the right way, starting where we are. It is not the time to share articles that trigger us with the bait and switch headlines or un-researched, smart-ass memes that create more division." It's time to take action. Action instead of reaction.

What action might look like for you is something that is personal and for you to decide. It depends on what you are passionate about and where your skills and interests lie. Whatever it is that breaks your heart, that keeps you up at night. As Margaret Mead stated, "Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed people can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has."